Monday, June 15, 2015
WoW. It's been awhile since I've posted, yes? It happens. Life. The list of things to do gets so long that something falls off it...right off the edge. ________________B
So. What's been going on? Well. Lets see.
More ranch fencing, gardening projects, 3 colds, 1 round of anti-botics, a vacation, some family happenings, a couple of new calves, rain, rain, and more rain, home improvements, a new building for horses, ah. Horseback riding lessons. The highlight of every week. I remembered something I had forgotten from when I was much younger.
I am completely happy when I am on the back of a horse. Completely and totally.
I am very happy in the presence of most any living being, really. I love to sculpt them, true. But that act is once removed from being with them, interacting with them. I love when my cat is in my lap and she's purring and I can look at her fuzzy face and see each single hair on her nose. It's a wonder.
In church on Sunday the sermon was about (among other things) presenting ourselves one way but behaving another. The number of sermons we've had for these last months about drawing the circle wider have been many but as our guest pastor pointed out, then on Monday we tend to fall back into old ways of being divisionary, exclusionary, because we believe we know what is right and those who agree with us are wise and those who don't are fools...obviously. That the opposite of Love is not Hate, it's Fear.
I think we listen to that fear through the voice in our heads. Everyone has that voice inside their heads. It's funny to me that when we're listening to it, or speaking from it we say, I say, "I'm just thinking." This is the chattering voice. It's shrill sometimes, it's self-righteous sometimes, or jealous, or well...it's giving voice to many variations of fear. It really isn't thinking. Bad enough it is when contained in our heads. Much worse if words make it audible to others, if actions make it felt.
I'm not out among others very often. I stay home and there's a lot to do at our little ranch even if I'm not sculpting. But that voice, my own inside my head, causes a lot of trouble for me just in the company of myself. Much of the time it's full of itself and thinks fame is "the ticket" to what will make it feel good. I know that isn't true. The wish for that comes from fear. Fear of being unimportant.
Part of my (at least) one prayer to God every day is to make me the type of person he created me to be.
Little's Voice says "What is it? I WANNA BE A BIG IMPORTANT ___________!!" (fill in the blank)...Little doesn't much care what goes in the blank...Little has Middle Child Syndrome...but not in a good way.
"Listen Little," (yes, I give this part of me a good talking to on a regular basis) I say, "I love you and you are an important part of me but Shut Up." and then I pray. If Little chatters while I'm praying I'll never get to Amen...so hopefully Little does shut up.
"Lord Jesus, I want to do what you would have me do- what ever is my soul's work. How can I learn what that is? How do I know if I do that already?" Mostly what I want to know is this. Am I on the right track?
When do I get in trouble? When do I get off track? When I don't listen to God and I listen to that trouble maker in my head. It says things like "I don't deserve to be treated like that." "I don't want to do that today." "I want to do that." "I wish __________." "I need _________." "I hate it when ________."
Shut up. Shut UP. SHUT UP!!
"Make a list every day."
"Give each your full attention."
"You will know what to do and when it is time to do it."
He never chatters. I love that.
My wish for you today:
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
March 6-7 and 13-15, 2015
I will be in Breckenridge this weekend to unveil the large sculpture I started in Jackson last September. I will also be demonstrating by starting a new sculpture.
"Magical" is the first large sculpture I've ever done and will be 3-D scanned and available as a limited edition bronze. A very limited limited edition. Pre-cast pricing will be made available to collectors who wish to get a special price on a bronze casting during this weekend and the next.
If I haven't fallen in love with the original too much - I might be persuaded to part with it.
The original has been coated in bronze and copper and I have applied a cold patina and some Swarovski have been added in some fun strategic places and it has been coated with jeweler's grade resin to give added strength. "Magical" is based on a revolving stand too.
It will never be as resilient as a bronze replica - but on the other hand - the opportunity to own an original artwork of this size is a pretty amazing prospect. And I may never think about selling an original sculpture again. So here's your chance...maybe.
Here's a copy of the ad coming out for the show. Hope you can be there!